thinking of something that is annoying only makes one feel annoyed.
Well, I am--was--annoyed. i don't know. this girl appears at the wrong place and at the wrong time.
i wonder why she tries to appear innocent. i don't know if she's acting plastic or what. I just feel annoyed whenever i see her, especially when she enters the room.
I don't hate her. I'm just annoyed. Annoyed at things that I do not yet realize.
When will she ever stop?

* -bEm-*

I have good news!
I passed CNU...!
part of the first 60 from the 4 batches last November to December takers.
:)
Two days later i learned that I also passed in UP.
BS Psychology. Or Mass Com.

But now I'm confused on which course to take...
It's bothering me.
My Dad wants me to study in CNU.
MY sis wants me to take UP coz she said CNU's a torture.
a mom said that I'd better choose the course that I want and not be influenced by other people's decisions.
I know i must decide things on my own.
i've been doing that since i was young.
But then, this is hard.
I'm talking here about a lifetime commitment.
Lifetime job.
Lifetime profession.
I love the courses... and it's difficult to choose.

I have to make the right decision... fast.
I don't want to regret in the end and shift to another course.
If i am to study, i have to finish what I've started.

* -bEm-*

* -bEm-*

Teardrops on my Guitar

by Taylor Swift

Drew looks at me.
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be.

I'll bet she's beautiful,
That girl he talks about.
And she's got everything
That I have to live without.

Drew talks to me.
I laugh, cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see
Anyone, when he's with me.

He says he's so in love.
He's finally got it right.
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night!

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar,
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star.
He's the song in the car I keep singing,
Don't know why I do.

Drew walks by me.
Can he tell that I cant breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly.

The kind of flawless I wish I could be.

She better hold him tight,
Give him all her love,
Look in those beautiful eyes,
And know she's lucky, cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar,
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star,
He's the song in the car I keep singing,
Don't know why I do.

So I drive home alone.
As I turn out the light,
I'll put his picture down,
And maybe get some sleep tonight.

Cause he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar,
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart,
He's the song in the car I keep singing,
Don't know why I do.

He's the time taken up,
But there's never enough.
And he's all that I need to fall into.

Drew looks at me.
I fake a smile so he won't see.

This is so nostalgic...
it's melody has captured me deeply...
the lyrics too.

You know what the funny part is?
Just when I have told myself to forget him
and just move on the moment the new year started,
he's my new year's resolution!...

he's now talking to me.
he's teasing me around,
he's now pinching me on the cheek...

he's now smiling at me.

oh great! just what the hell is he doing??
and just what in the name of heaven am i doing??
huh?

but know what,
it's a wonder why i don't feel weird anymore.
i guess it's because I've trained my subconscious mind
to move on and let him go.
i just laugh as if nothing's going on in my head.
i don't reminisce about us any more, unlike before.
it's like i feel nothing.

that's good, isn't it?

He WAS the reason for the teardrops on my guitar...
the only thing that i once WISHED on a wishing star...
he WAS the song I've COMPOSED with my heart
didn't know why,
but now i do...

* -bEm-*