It's supposed to be Christmas, a time where we can eat lots of delicious Hamonada and lechon and lots of delightful desserts, where we can enjoy our family's company while waiting in high spirits for our presents to be opened.
I'm supposed to feel that way, only something made me stop on my tracks.

While eating dinner my cousin asked me if I ever heard of this one outrageous news:
that ABS-CBN is planning to make a Filipino version of TWILIGHT.

And its title is...

TAKIPSILIM

Yeah, you read it right. You heard it right.
And you'll go crazy with this:

ARE THEY CRAZY???
NUTS? INSANE? DERANGED? BERSERK? DEMENTED?

I also researched on the net. And according to the site perezhilton.com:

"Actors Rayver Cruz and Shaina Magdayao will be portraying Edward and Isabella, respectively, in the ABS-CBN production which will treat the vampire love story as "drama, romance, and fantasy."

It will be directed by Cathy Garcia Molina and is scheduled to begin filming sometime in February, in both the Philippines and abroad.

The news comes as an upheaval to Twilighters across the internet, who have started an online petition to halt production on Takipsilim because it will "ruin the real Twilight.""

I researched more, and found these rumored casts:

Rayver Cruz as Edward Cullen
Shaina Magdayao as Isabella Swan
Valeen Montenegro as Alice Cullen
Gabby Concepcion as Dr. Carlisle Cullen
Luis Manzano as Emmett Cullen
Al Tantay as Charlie Swan
Yayo Aguila as Renee Dwyer
Fred Payawan as Jacob Black
Carlos Agassi as James
Chin Chin Gutierrez as Esme Cullen
Karylle as Rosalie Hale
Joross Gamboa as Jasper Hale
Jessy Mendiola as Jessica Stanley
Empress Schuck as Angela Weber
Brad Murdoch as Laurent
Nikki Bacolod as Victoria
Aaron Villaflor as Mike Newton

...
I think there would be a very evident, nationwide upheaval concerning this. 'Copying' issue is a very loud issue, and now another one is coming up. Expect an uproar.
Filipinos are undoubtedly good actors. But this is going too far. Twilight is a very successful book and movie, and if this goes to Philippine presentation, oho, everything would go haywire. Critics would probably sprout everywhere, and the internet would be bombarded with lots of sideswipes.
If this thingy will be realized in Feb, there would be national shaking of heads, for sure.


Waaaaaahh!
I can't believe it.
It's disgusting.
It's awful.
I dunno how to react, really.

If this will happen, let's just see...
...with arms akimbo...
WHAM!

Huhu... Edward!

Do you have anything to say?

Let's just hope that THIS is just some funny joke.

Classes are finally over!! For the meantime. (Awww....)
Yep! It's Christmas break! No classes, no lectures, no uniforms, no napping in class... Yippee!
We just had our party in Mambaling beside Petron, the one with the lot for sale...? The sHeEet group arrived first, at about four in the afternoon, and everyone got in slowly at about five. The part officially started at about 6:30. Talking about punctuality and Filipino time.
Anyway, it was a sumptuous feast. There were about three to four different courses lain on the buffet table, plus yummy desserts called Buko-pandan and two flavorful gallons of ice cream.
(You know, i really wished I brought my camera along to take shots. It would have been fun taking stolen pictures! Just like what Jem said, the best pictures are the ones that are taken at the spur of the moment!)

The sHeEeT group...?







various faces there...

good work Justin!!
Wait... where's the cake?
Haha, there's no cake. :)

This is Rosefil
Roses are red...
But I wonder why they call her tambok?
She doesn't look tambok to me...
But she certainly have looks. :)





The Sci-hi girls...
Where's Ma Jo?

These are some pictures I stole from Lyka's Facebook profile. Thanks Lyka and sorry pud! Hihi.

Hey, how come I'm not in there??

Never mind that.

I waited patiently for the exchanging-gifts portion to come. It was after the Hephep-hooray and paper dance segments. Finally, we all stood as one, formed a big circle and started singing, "I love my manita/manito. yes i do..." like a chant. After a few rounds I got mine! But sadly, Kimberly wasn't around to personally give me my present. But we understood. She was lining up for promotion in Karatedo after all. Ma'am Pogoy got her present from Donya Panyang and, surprisingly, she gave her gift to Phoebe! We thought it was Monece... Anyway, after everyone has received their own presents, we opened them together and VIOLA!!

I got my wish!!!
Artemis Fowl...
I've been waiting for this for months...! I've been wishing on having even one book of the series ever since I happened to handle the book and read its back page, which surely caught and captivated my eye, a few months ago. And Kimberly gave it to me! Wow...! Thanks a lot Kim! Though this is the fourth book, I really appreciate it! I've been secretly planning on buying the first book: The Lost Colony, and then Patrice, Justin and Angelie told me that book was totally out of stock and you had no choice, and then you were scared that I might have read the book when in fact I haven't read even one, and then...wow! Thank you thank you thank you!

Go raibh maith 'ad!

And Ferrero Rocher too!
Thanks!

And I won't forget this gift from Phoebe, which was also on my wish list:




Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge!

Thanks Phoebe!



MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS IC!

I'm currently listening to Beyonce's If I were a Boy...

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it
Because they’d stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
If I were a boy

I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone its broken
So they think
that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waiting for me to come home (to come home)

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand (and you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you’re just a boy…

The song has its own touch on relationships that are slowly not working. Many must have been struck by this... but I'm not one of them.
Wahahaha...

If i were a boy?
I'd learn to drive a car and a Big Bike way before I turn eighteen.
If I were a boy?
I'd sleep in class and ace all the tests after snoozing.
If I were a boy?
I'd join Fear factor!
If I were a boy?
I'd do lots of sports, especially extreme ones.
If I were a boy?
I'd do the fireworks myself, without feeling afraid.
If i were a boy?
I'd find myself a convenient apartment, with a beautiful view of nature.
If i were a boy?
I'd study Forensic science, or probably become a spy.
If i were a boy?
I'd work on my abs!
If I were a boy?
I'd work hard to become a Badminton pro.
If i were a boy?
I'd become a famous, independent photo j.
If i were a boy?
I'd buy all the Mangas after a tiring day in the office.
If I were a boy?
I'd become an astronaut and study the mystique of the universe.
If I were a boy?
I'd play Dota all night without feeling a bit drowsy.
if i were a boy?
I'd learn Archery and join Olympics.
If I were a boy?
I'd be a genius!

Well...

If I were a boy?
I'd compose a song for my girl, and let her hear about it.
If I were a boy?
I'd give my last piece of my fave Dried Mango to her, not minding that the last piece is always the most delicious one...
If I were a boy?
I'd buy myself a telescope and watch the night sky... with my girl.
If I were a boy?
I'd kick the ass who would make my girl cry.
If i were a boy?
I'll make her feel that I love her, even during my most hectic schedules in my studies.
if i were a boy?
I'd give her my time, even after a busy day in the hospital.
If i were a boy?
I'd help her in her studies, especially in Anatomy and Physiology.
If i were a boy?
I'd play with her her most favorite game, even though I hated playing the game on my own myself.
If I were a boy?
I'd teach her play Dota, so we can enjoy the game together.
If i were a boy?
I'd let her tease me, and I'll tease her twice more.
If i were a boy?
I'd treat her ramen and let her choose which flavor she'd want.
If i were a boy?
I'd just listen to her, without talking, without disturbing her. Just listen to her voice playing like a beautiful orchestra on my ears.

If i were a boy?
If i were a boy...?
If i were a boy...

But I'm not.
I'm a girl.

Unwritten
by Natasha Bedingfield

I am unwritten
Can't read my mind
im undefined
im just begining
the pen is in my hand
ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inner visions


Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten ,yeah

Oh, oh

I break tradition
Sometimes my tries
Are outside the lines, oh yeah
Within condition
To not make mistakes
But I can't live that way oh, oh

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inner visions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten


Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inner visions


Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
drench yourself in words unspoken
Live you life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten

I really want to place the pictures I've taken during my birthday, but sad to say, I can't upload them because of technical problems. But anyway,
THANKS FOR ALL THOSE WHO GREETED!
I'm now officially 17!!
Oh bless me.



Oh yeah. One year to go and I'll be officially an adult!
One more year of waiting, and I could have my license and drive the car. One more year and I can do lots of independent things... Char. But with parental guidance japon uie.
Hihi.
Kalagot lang, we had NSTP! The weather was not behaving very well in the morning and I really REALLY didn't want to go but then I was looking forward to our notes so taddah...!
In the afternoon Cherssy and I went to the church together and attended the 2:30 mass. After that we went to my house and ate IT with gusto. *Chuckle* Just kidding.
Well, what we really did was just we had a little gathering, me, my family and some relatives, and a few neighbors. I quite regretted the idea of not inviting more friends, though I tried but then due to some constraints and stuff, they weren't able to come.
It was a happy event, with lots of food and ice cream and cake, but it would have been happier if my Dad was here. I understood, though. He's on the other side of the globe, so there's nothing I could do. When we talked he also wished to be here, but hey, he's still in the middle of adjustments,with his new job and environment. As much as he wanted to be here in the Philippines, there's nothing he could do but just hang on and sacrifice for a little while.
I'd bet we'll have the saddest Christmas of our lives...
But anyway, before the night was concluded last Sunday, Cherssy gave me my present! Weeee! Actually, the 'box' came from my closest circle of friends (Chers, Danielle and Shayne) but it was Cherssy who gave it to me personally. After hours of little 'surveys' and some 'kuti-kuti' and 'palusot', she gave the box she was bringing before we left the house. And wow! I got a USB! thanks guys! I also got three blank CDs, a clown fish stuff toy (which, according to Cherssy, was ANDREW from my story. *snicker*), and two very cute slings for the USB. One was a pretty black sling, the other one was a very pink girly stuff. they also gave me a small, blue Oriental pearl mirror and! mind you, a very blue girlish headband.
Nah, mabayot jud ko ani.
*laughs*
And did i mention that the box had some confetti 'arte' or something?
Thanks jud kaayo guys! I mean... Wow, words are not enough! thanks to Mdm. Eviota pud, who also contributed to the gift. Thanks jud!
I was really touched when she also gave me a letter she made herself. I really like the connection of characters, how she related them to me. Char. but bitaw, i really like it. Thanks a million!!

I also would like the people who made the little celebration possible:
To my parents and my siblings! Thank you!
to Tito Dan, for my ice cream
To our Kuyas, for the cake and the foods
to our neighbors, thanks pud.
to Tita Net, for her greetings from London.

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!
^u^

If muingon ko nga naibog ko nimo,kissan ko nimo?

-Jesnel to Ria

I really like the exchange of words between these two! It was both cute and funny... I can't help but laugh..! (hihi!) I was right there when Jesnel said that, and Tony was even there. Well, hey! Jesnel quite missed her that day. "Wa lageh ko kadungog sa iyang tingog ron."
Uy!
Ria was even funnier.
"Naibog na jud ka nako Jesnel."
and that's when Jesnel said those words! when everything didn't even exist around them... even the noisy turmoil in the kiosk didn't bother them at all...
Hihi!
Really really cute.
I salute you guys!!




PS: Guys, they're just joking around. Nothing serious going on in there.
:)
I never thought Jesnel has some humor up on his sleeves up until that moment.
:)

Two long weeks!
weeks of isolation, social and sleep deprivation, and intense mind-testers.
It's just our third week and we have done lots of things already. Just this Monday and Tuesday we finished the whole SKELETAL SYSTEM in TWO HOURS and THIRTY MINUTES. On Wednesday and Thursday we ventured on the MUSCULAR SYSTEM. And just this morning we had our nose bleeding unit test.
I'm not exaggerating.

Waaah, i expected this. With all those return demos and quizzes and fast paced lectures... thank God i got through.
I wonder what's in store for me next week?
...

The only consolation for me is that December is just around the corner.
"Rudolf the red-nosed reindeer... "
Yes, break!
heh heh.
:)

One thing about October is Jeth's birthday.
oh, not the REAL Jeth. (Hi to Jeth! I mean, Pearl.) No. The Jeth I'm talking about is the main character of my series. I can't put her age here, coz in my story I didn't specify her year of birth. But really, does it matter?



I like her. Harhar. Not that I'm the one who introduced her to the outside world. It's because she's tough. She's someone you couldn't fool by anything. Yeah. She's intelligent! Not only that, but she's very very...cool. Aw, listen to yourself, Bem! Anyway, yeah. She's cool and yup, she's got looks too, only she doesn't see herself like that.
I want to say a lot of things about her, but I'll be spoiling if I go overboard! Hehe...

But there's one thing I can't deny about her:

She's one hell of a tough girl.

Happy birthday Jeth!

(I really hope I can write soon. But I need to have a USB to save my files. Our computer's precariously on the brink of a breakdown. Waaah, I'll scream real loud if one day I'd come home and have a deader computer than any other day!!)

*I'm addled on what to do...

Internet connection at last! I've been holding a grudge on My DSL for holding our connection too long for three whole days! Lookie, i wasn't able to celebrate my 1st YEAR ANNIVERSARY in the BlogWorld! Oh yeah, I just turned one! (yippee! plus fireworks!)

One year... One year!
Wow. Could hardly believe time passed so fast. A year? I didn't actually think I could last that long. But then, I just turned one, remember? Char...
Good thing before our net was temporarily busted together with the electricity (which, fortunately, didn't last for three days but only for a night.) I was able to change my layout. Simple with an easy access of everything.
But before anything else, I'd like to thank these people:
*my Links! especially:
1. MiKyu- You've helped a lot. And I thank you for dropping in my site even once in a while! And hey, Kyu, I also like the Simple Plan video. Not just like it, but I love it! It really reached its target, uhuh.
2. Eka Mika- You've helped a lot in my site! Thanks!
3. Pat2- To my friend in Canada, thanks for your thoughts! I always drop by in your site. thanks for doing the same!
*and to my readers! Those classmates of mine who knew my site...Thanks! thanks for your compliments and support! You have no idea how much I appreciate them...

You guys are my inspiration!

Arigatou Gozaimasu!

Hey!
I'll be celebrating my one-year anniversary
for being a blogger!
that would be on October 31.
And yes! I'm excited!

hmm...
la lang.
Heh heh.

Yesterday, I had a little heart attack of my life.

I was alone in the house yesterday. After playing Facebook, I wanted to pee. So without second thoughts I went to our loo, and since the door was already open wide, I entered and switched the light on. And when I was heading to the faucet to turn it on, just when I turned my head, there in front of my eyes, nearly, very nearly inches before my face, right below the switch, was this.

Oh not that!
that's too... congenial.
This one!



No, that's too...
cool!
really, let's get serious!


That's the one.
A gecko.
A very large gecko.

probably a ruler and a half.

I was too surprised that I covered my eyes, stuck myself to the wall of the loo (yeah i didn't leave!) and freaked out. Before my ego decided to desert me, I opened my eyes, took a very quick glimpse at the little amphibian, which was now inches above the switch, and ran for my dear life!
Why bother turning the lights off? What am I, crazy?

Whew.

Now really, every time I look back, I laugh at myself as my hairs prickled with goosebumps and my heart does that loud thudding sound. Shucks, I really was nuts, wasn't I? I left the loo's lights on for an hour because I was too scared to get too close. Remember those myths. Not that I believed them, but it's better to keep my distance, right?
When I looked back, there it was, still clinging on the wall, now outside the loo. Whoa, imagine my jitters.
crazy, little freak. haha!

But actually, these geckos are a friendly bunch. We actually have two in the house, and they travel a lot. Yeah. travel around the house. They make those loud, echoing sound gurgling from their throats, and before you can think of anything else, you'll just think,
"tuko! tuko! tuko! Naa napud..."
They say if a tuko or a gecko lives in your house, it means good luck. They actually thrive in peaceful places, and quiet homes. Now you get the idea? For the past five months our house has been seldomly inhabited because most of us live in the other house in Mandaue (for convenience) and just return every weekend. So, these geckos had a chance to roam around and enjoy the tranquility. heh heh. But you know, even before we stayed in Mandaue, these geckos were still here. They've been actually here for almost four years. I wonder why?

I try to forget their unblinking eyes, rough skin and humongous lengths and sizes. Come to think of it, they're actually 'innocent' and very helpful in keeping a mosquito- and fly-free home. But gee... they're still creepy.

And you can't blame me for that.

Yes! Finally, FINALS is over. (actually, it's been a week since it's over.) It's already our sem break, but crap, it's not really what you call an ideal sem break. I've gone to our school four days in a row because of clearance. Grr. I've had enough of those since I was in elementary, and now in college! waaa, roll over, scream a little scream of annoyance. But anyway, I've got no choice, haven't I? If i didn't pass I won't be able to enroll for the next semester.

I don't want to think about marks. especially math...! It's a pain in the neck.

Anyway, I don't have those hangover teens usually get during long breaks. I'm just in the house, interneting--if there's a term like that--coz I haven't checked my mails for more than a week, and watch TV like I haven't watched for years! well, not really years, but months. see, we don't have any TV in the other house, nor a radio, that's why I'm very outdated about everything. I'm out of anything new, and I don't even have some light bulbs of nagbabagang-balita. I've been thinking for weeks, "What's in the world?" and "What's going on?" shenanigans. Not that I totally cared, but... c'mon. As a social being, we always have that nagging feeling of incompleteness whenever we lose touch with the real world. We have to know.
I have to know.
Naks.
Let me restate that.
I'd like to know.
That's better.

That's why I'm catching up on the goings-on before I infiltrate Anatomy and Physiology on the next sem. I want to watch Ripley's and the last days of Iisa pa lamang. yeah. hehe. I'm catching up on anime and Manga too, like Naruto and Wallflower. Char. :)
I also want to watch movies, only my cousin's DVD player is with his bro.
I'm also catching up with my sleep in order to revitalize. I'm enjoying peace and order since I'm alone in the house most of the time and the rest of my family are in the other house on the other side of Cebu for good school proximity.
In short, I'm a homebody for these weeks of break. Yeah.
That sounds understandable, right? Hmmm. Maybe it's better for me. ...oh yeah, it is.
Recharge. haha.

I don't know what's in store for me for the upcoming months of uncertainty, but for sure I'll face them with pure hardship and perseverance. But of course, before that, I'm gonna have my time in my short vaca.

Yep yep.
:)

I have a lot to share this week! so many experiences... from wall climbing to mountain view...
not quite exasperating, with all our money going down the drain. haha! really. :)
but it was fun! so fun that i didn't mind the expenses mounting with prior notice--er, a bit. :)
I'll tell you all about it after i catch up with the school stuff. i actually have a lot of things to do as of the moment.
so, toodles! for now...!

I'd Lie
I don’t think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
And I count the colors in his eyes
He’ll never fall in love he swears
As he runs his fingers through his hair
I’m laughing cause I hope he's wrong
I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke I fake a smile
That I know all his favorite songs
And..

[chorus]
I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father’s eyes
And if you ask me if I love him,
I’d lie

He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn’t a light go on?
Doesn’t he know I’ve had him memorized for so long?
He sees everything black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don’t let nobody see me wishing he was mine

[chorus]

He stands there then walks away
My god if I could only say
I’m holding every breathe for you...

He’d never tell you but he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything
But my heart
First thought when I wake up is
My god he’s beautiful
So I put on my make up
And pray for a miracle

Yes I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue oh and it kills me
His sisters beautiful he has his father’s eyes
And if you asked me if I love him
If you ask me if I love him
I’d lie

Mystifyingly honest.
Secretly loving...

Makarelate sah??

hehe...

...

Oh... It's been a long, LONG time!
I've been pretty bushed in school, with all those tests (like I study, haha) and case study. yeah. CASE STUDY. I've been out of the Blogworld for a month, and I missed it! Today's the only time I've finally had a chance to grab the chair and do some stress-relieving activities like blogging. (refer to my previous entry).

Well, I actually want to say a lot of things, from disaster to some funny, tickling moments. But let me share something...
Have you ever experienced waking up every morning feeling a bit queasy for the day ahead, wishing for the time to quickly pass, thinking if you could just think straight and avoid overanalyzing petty things that would in the end give you a feeling of mild chagrin...and see life in a different perspective by trying to remember stuffs that have brought pleasant memories? uhuh. pretty long, eh? But do see my point? It's actually feeling bothered. In a few hours you'll be dragged into a different new world called 'School' or 'Office' and then you'd go blank right after you thought you can actually ace it.
But you didn't. You flunked. All your thoughts go haywire, finding answers to why you failed when a minute or so ago you thought you'd be all right.
Have you experienced that?

I?
...
Of course.
I'm having some cephalic problems, actually.
Not that I went mental.
no, no.
I think I just lack focus.
Or is it simply that I don't mind at all?
hmmm....

Hi guys! Shucks, It's been weeks since i last blogged. I'm really really really sorry about it! I've been pretty busy in school... you know na.
Just had our midterm. So far it was ok, but our chem was not so ok. Argh, everything was so, so fast! Here, check these out:

Monday, August 11, 2008
Physical Education
*I hate BMI...
*Didn't really study this course coz i actually didn't have notes.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Filipino
*What's with all those dates??
*the Wikang Pambansa thing sucks. Can't remember even one law.
(good thing I didn't choose law over nursing. hehe..)

Wednesday, August 13, 2008
English
*It was pretty ok. Nothing to complain about...
*Didn't even study this course. why? coz our majors were coming up next!

Chemistry
*I thought it would come up pretty easy because I've liked chem since high school, and that's all thanks to Miss Mojado, who is now in North Carolina. (Thanks a lot, Ms.!)
But then the test didn't come pretty 'chicken' as expected.
*Situational questions! waaaaaa.
*I think I got a pretty low score in this course... But I'm still hoping I didn't flunk!
*I really really hope not.

NAS: Nursing Theories
*Hmmm... More manageable than chem. I didn't expect to finish so early.
*I heaved a sigh of relief when I realized it wasn't like that mind-boggling chem.
*I don't know my marks yet, but according to our mayor I passed.
*I'm actually crossing my fingers. It's a major!

Thursday, August 14, 2008
Psychology
*so-so
*shakoi au ang brain! Hope i got them right.
I just wrote answers without thinking much.

Math
*Damn. Don't ask.

What a relief! At last it's all done. But you know what, I stayed at home after taking the exams. I didn't go with my friends somewhere, in Ayala, SM, anywhere. I was pretty drained because of that last subject. though it's a multiple choice type...
I watched Korean movies all afternoon. :)

1. Sad movie
-It's the best!! I highly recommend it! Though I've watched it three times already, it never failed to squirm my stomach and make my heart curl into a painful fist. The pain of it... You won't finish the movie without feeling the cringe in your heart. I assure you that.

2. Windstruck
I watched it again and it's so nice. the girl's very pretty... yet the story is quite senti.

3.My Sassy Girl
I also watched this for the second or third time. it's a funny movie, and moving at the same time.

I forgot the forth movie I watched... hehe!

10 Ways of Releasing Stress:
Well, that's according to me

1. Do some massage
I couldn't really afford some massage treatments in classy places, but I sometimes ask a friend to do it on me, either on my temples or on my palms. It's a soothing thing to do, especially in school.
2. Talk out loud 'til i tire of doing all the talking
Yeah, don't be surprised that I sometimes blabber too much in very stressful situations. It's just my way of saying "I'm tired, but I can't stop."
3. Surf the net (or play games)
Yep, blogging and checking mails. watching anime, reading mangas online, reading online news articles(since we don't have tv in Mandaue). I don't watch porn! no, no!
4. Watch movie
It does relieve my stress. why? it makes me escape the real me for a short while. I view other people's lives and their stories without worrying about myself and what other things to do.
5. Read books
After a stressful situation I sometimes resolve to reading books for entertainment. When I feel it's been a long time since I last read a book, probably 2-3 weeks, I find ways to check one and see if I could read it in my room, alone.
6. Play sports
Oh yeah, playing sports is also a way! It releases the tired energy out and renews body strength and alertness. I play badminton when I have time, or play catch and tennis in my room with the wall as my opponent. Call me crazy, but anyone who can't release their stress IS crazier than me, right?
7. Do some Journalism stuff
Writing stories, songs, poems and the like. They're outlets for repressed emotions for the moments that have been so pressing for quite a time. I do that whenever I feel the moment, or when trigger moments take me into action with my pen. I always take note of the thoughts that suddenly come into my mind before it vanishes, like some cute lines in conversations and some unforgettable events in the day that can be so funny or cool to recall, especially before falling asleep.
8. Listen to music
I can't live without music! It's one of my best outlets because I could finally jam and sing at the top of my lungs and be so alive. it soothes my mind, my body and my soul, and i can relax within minutes especially when i listen to soft country music.
It would also be very relaxing if it goes with star-gazing. :)
9. EAT!
Don't worry if I eat a lot after or during pressure. It's a very effective way of releasing my tension and wearied pheromones. Shucks, i LOVE to eat! Though it makes my allowance reduce into ashes, it really fattens my stomach and satisfies my physical and mental needs. Only... I have this syndrome that is so evident after I eat. It's an explainable phenomena but for me I call this a Blaise syndrome coz it's only I who manifest it clearly every after break.
I tend to feel drowsy. Really drowsy.
My brain's focus is very one-sided, right?
10. SLEEP (a long, dreamless and undisturbed sleep)
Do I have to explain this?
Well, when I'm very tired, I sleep for more than 12 hours. When I wake up, I still feel groggy. hehe!
:)

School's tough.
But not as tough... yet.
I mean, i was expecting a full-blown wide-ranged phenomena coming my way once I enter college, but so far I haven't encountered epistaxis as an aftermath YET. well, maybe it's because I'm not yet using my uniform. haha! Really, i haven't totally grasped everything yet, mainly because my outfit for a whole month felt like high school. come on, i have a point. Toni even felt the same thing. she was someone we could call 'bulabog' (hehe, peace Toni!) when she was in tees and trousers but when she had her uniform on, she instantaneously became 'prim and proper'. She became so serious in her studies that when I entered the room for our Psychology class she suddenly blurted out,

"Blaise! Amazing di ay ang brain sah?" and blah blah with those red and green lines plus a cloth tied on top and coordination of those body parts and the hypothalamus controlling the emotion of LOVE.
I stared at her in bewilderment. "Hey, am I hearing right?"
She beamed at me. "Yeah. And that's because I'm in my uniform. I can feel it!"

You know, I've been feeling the same thing all along. that's why I'm anxious to wear our all-white uniform. I think it's time to put in real efforts after fooling around in plain casuals. I have to feel that I'M a student, a real student, or else I would feel that I'm just a nobody. Take a look at my math! So basic... but my mind wasn't in it. you now know what happened. XP

Classmates, friends, readers, and anybody in the vicinity,
I'm going to give you a warning.

Don't take the green 21B with the plate number: GWW 364.

It has green and white paint inside, plastic-covered foamed seats, with a rusting steel for a tight grip as one moves along the 'hallway'. It is about 4 meters in length and about two meters in width, excluding the driver's compartment. under the seats there are two rectangular chairs made of wood. Plus, a stubborn driver and an insensitive barker/conductor.

i tell you, take my heed. it's not easy to be in there with everyone crammed inside the jeep!! What are we, sardines? The conductor was not even hospitable. He thought we could just jam our butts all at the same moment without feeling any discomfort? Oh, if i had the chance, I'll let us exchange places and see how far his patience would go. I was really annoyed; he was insisting each column to have about eighteen passengers when the capacity was supposed to be fifteen only! plus, the center aisle was completely blocked by four passengers, all holding tight on their seats or else they'd fall off over the edge while resisting inertia. There were also four men hanging at the very back of the jeep. And they didn't even finish their route! they dropped all of us at the highway and dunno where they'd gone! out of annoyance i walked the whole block from the Shell station to Chowking highway and it was there where i finally hopped into a jeepney. I felt relieved after doing that moody walk. :) It actually made me more alive and my presence of mind was stronger that afternoon after a busy day in school. talk about a periodic outlet. but really, i actually got calmer after that.

so, so annoying... what a tiring day. wished i had eaten chocolate first thing in the morning...

Having good friends really fattens the heart.

This happened last Wednesday, the same day i had my vaccination:
Like i said, i've wanted my bed badly that night, so i've prepared to have my night bath for a warm and blissful sleep. when i was about to do my routine, my silent phone started vibrating and i luckily saw it when i glanced askance before leaving the room. i hurriedly picked up the line and in came the voice of a very close friend of mine since high school.
"Hi Bem."
"Uie, hi pud Ma!" I call her Ma, though she's the youngest in our small close circle of four friends.
"Bem, ara ko ha? ok ra?" Our houses have been in walking distance since i moved three weeks ago.
"Ari ka? sure, sure!" I was ecstatic!
"Tagbua ko ha?"
"Ok! kaw ra usa?"
"O, ako ra. ha? tagbua ko."
"Yup2!"
"Padung na ra bah ko."
"Ha?? o cge, mugawas ko after ani."
"Ok. cge bem, bye!"
"Cge!"
now burning with energy, i rushed downstairs and into the pouring rain, waiting for my friend to show up. and she did.
But she was not alone.
My other close friend was with her!
At first i didn't recognize them when they were quite distant because i wasn't wearing my glasses. i was quite speechless for seconds when they showed up! i wasn't expecting for Cherssy to drop by at that time of the night, knowing that she's a home buddy when it comes to studies and school stuff. I haven't seen her in a month! I once visited Ma D (the D stands for Danielle) before but Cherssy was quite a surprise. THEY surprised me. I knew very well that our respective schools have been very demanding and...nuts, so i was really happy to have them even for just an hour. we chatted the whole time, laughing at silly jokes, reminiscing momentous memories, linking faces to different names and others. It was fun, i tell you. though we just stood outside chitchatting, oblivious to the unpleasant weather, just talking about anything under the sun, i mean rain (hehe!), we had enjoyed each other's presence in that short visit without worrying 'bout anything that kills. They've given me additional vital energy to move forward and meet the world as they also do the same.
Chers is in USC-TC, Ma D in USJR, Shayne in CNU (SPED), and I in CNU too... well we all have our own dreams and aspirations and goals to follow and reach. but then, the thought of them still standing by me is something...precious and touching. WE know it's a new world out there, yet we never forget about each other. we may sometimes fail to keep in touch, but we know we still have each other and we can stay under each other's umbrella, sticking out 'til the end. (char!) bitaw, it's true.
I may have sounded sentimental, but it's so true. it's all thanks to them. :)

I actually had my Hepa vaccination two days ago, i think. can't quite remember the date... oh no! memory loss! huhu... that's totally a bummer!
LOL. just kidding. it was exactly two days ago. no joke this time. :)
well, it was ok. i'm not trypanophobic in any way. in fact i love being injected, either to be extracted with blood or for vaccination purposes, unless if the case is being diagnosed with a fatal disease. (tap tap! hope that's not going to happen.) seriously, i didn't feel that worn out and stressed because of it, though my injected forearm had felt numb after sometime (but i just ignored it. hehe.). I watched how Doc Plasubas did his thing, his routine, from the beginning 'til end without blinking in order not to miss a thing. I even laughed when he told me that he felt the needle touch my bone (really? i didn't even feel anything at all when he said that.). I talked to him as he pushed the syringe so that the vaccine could penetrate my skin and he said that it's normal for the arm to feel heavy because that would mean the medicine's starting to climb through one's system to authorize protection. well, that made sense. :) hehe...
but when i got home i actually hurried for bed. i guess i had a long day...

Hmmm, here's something i found out about my name. some are true. some aren't. (i'm scratching my head now, thinking on what to say next. really.)
oh ok, I'll go directly to the point. here it goes:

What Mary Blaise Means

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous. You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things. Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

I actually just got home from school via the most popular vehicle in the entire country: the jeepney. what i really loathe about riding one is the DUST permeating the ENTIRE atmosphere. yeah, smoke belching too! it really weakens me; one moment i'm still alert and vigilant, the next minute i get screwed, with my face either drenched with sweat with all the people crammed in the jeep, or completely dry and oily plus dog-eyed eyes. (blech...)

anyway, i had my first day yesterday as a Nursing student with lots of courses in my degree program, and yeah, you guessed it. the ambiance was tensed, shy, and pretty awkward. I was just quiet and demure, with the rest of the class, though some of them weren't that bashful. And my hatest part came expectedly (well, that always happens on the first day of class!) : the introduction! i was sort of blank and i got stuck with just one idea before it was my turn. and you know what that was? Blogs. oh don't get me wrong. i spoke of blogs when no one knew me yet, except Doris. argh... Sir Daño was really accommodating (he's our Nursing theories professor) but then he was tight and frugal with his ten-word limit for that intro thing! and i stupidly blurted out in a plain voice,
"I'm Mary Blaise Aniñon. And i have a blog online."
Oh count that! it's perfect ten! (i should get some credit for that. hahaha..) Though it was kinda funny in my ears, and probably theirs too.
what a nice intro, Blaise. :)
and it didn't stop there! on our next subject i said the same thing again! like i was advertising my blog or something! waaaaaa... i was ashamed for doing the same mistake in my consecutive subjects on the same day! my sis even laughed at me when i told her that. XP
It was pretty fun, actually. after all the tense moments have ceased, it was like a student knew the others, which unfortunately was not true, for i knew only a few, probably six or seven. but there's no need to worry coz i'll be with them for a semester anyway. i have time to know know them while i struggle with my hectic sched and my demanding subjects!

*grin like mad (like a psycho. haha!)*
I'm a neophyte, but I'll beat all the odds! go, go! :)

-Blaise-


oh, and did i mention that i missed my very first class in my college life: Psychology?

Yesterday I went to UK, as in UKay-Ukay. for real. it was my first time to dig on the piling clothes on the tables, getting itchy by the ants' bites every now and then while looking for something that i could buy. well, i was looking for a sweater with a hood, zipper and side pockets. :) but i didn't see the zipper and side pockets so instead i took two ordinary ones, with hoods, for only TWENTY pesos. ten each. weird, eh? unsa goy tiangge nimo?

but when i got home neither of the two clothes i bought fit. XP

the hoods were too small that i got choked. haha... so i gave them to my lil bro and cousin.
Anyway, before we went home, i was waiting in Julie's bakeshop for my sister to finish buying burgers on the other store when a ragged and famished kid came to me and asked for food. I wanted to give gim even a piece of bread but then i decided otherwise. why? it's not because I was greedy or i didn't want to be contaminated by those filthy hands (that's exaggerating.). I was thinking... why can't the parents feed their children like responsible parents should? why do they have to 'make' children when they cannot even support their own basic needs? if i had given the kid some bread, would he have been fully satisfied? no. would his parents realize that their child was doing something that he wasn't supposed to be doing? no. would he also realize his dignity has been slowly flaking off every time he begs from strangers? no. he wouldn't even realize he has one. if i did give him, would his life change? no. he'll continue asking and begging for food, he won't be able to go to school because his parents don't care or don't have jobs to supply them with money for the expenses, and he'll still be filthy without doing anything about it. there is a possibility he'll change, but the chances are nil.
it's either he chooses to stay the same or make some sense in his life.
but how could he when there's no one to teach him which should be done, which is right or wrong?

so i didn't give him a piece of bread.

and, minutes later, another street child approached me. i ignored at first. but when my mom and sis came, i grew tired of her pleading gaze and the words, "Ga.e ko te. cge na te." so i gave her one, stood up and left,feeling both ok and argumentative deep inside.

According to the news I've just read, freshman Senator Barack Obama won the Democratic presidential nomination against Hillary Clinton, taking a huge and momentous step toward the goal of becoming the first Black president of the United States of America. Obama has opted for change, which probably has made people of his dreams for the whole USA as well as their own. Clinton, who already has experience and skills for an effective leadership, still has no bout to Obama--maybe she has but not that much for people to ponder on.

But i noticed something:
it's a woman versus man.
and this is much obvious too:
it's black versus white.

i bet there's racial discrimination for that's inevitable. it's an ongoing, endless and ruthless war between the two races, and if Obama garners the highest votes for the coveted position of presidency against Republican Sen. John McCain, no doubt, there will be a cultural uproar amidst the Black triumph, which has been underestimated by many since time immemorial.
If Obama wins, he has to be good, or else he'll put not just the Blacks but also the whole state into shame, making other industrialized countries like China and Japan to surpass the most powerful and influential country in the whole world in this decade.

And that, would be a blow.

Thanks to Eka, my font is now readable! Gosh, i've been working that out for days, and it's just as simple as "Mary had a litttle lamb". haha!
bitaw, arigatou Eka!

now classes are looming closer, and i can't wait for the first day! new faces, new rooms, new school! i think I'd be doing a lot of fidgeting on my seat...
what are the teachers like? how 'bout my classmates? are they cordial or just pathetically impassive? hehe, just like me. :) and will our subjects be manageable? my sis is teasing me about the first year majors like Anatomy and Fundamentals of Nursing. not that i care much. haha! bitaw, i'm thrilled to know how it is to adapt in a new environment. i know it would be quite hard and frenetic and covertly insane...and i hope i'll manage.
:)